To Our Daughter..

  January 30, 2021    I haven't done any extra tests in the last 2.5 weeks because I'm still in denial, but today marks 9 weeks since my last period which means I'm officially longer than the other 3 pregnancies. I don't know whether to start accepting it or still be doubtful. In the 2 weeks of being unemployed, I've been focusing on listening to my body and trying to stay healthy. When I received a positive test the first time, I immediately began taking prenatal vitamins again just to be sure. This morning I got bored and decided to partake in a little science experiment. I read that after a certain amount of weeks in your pregnancy, the HCG levels in your urine eventually level out causing your test line to become lighter. The sciencey part of this was if you diluted your urine with a bit of water, the test line would become dark again. I wanted to play around and try this, and of course the bigger part of me just wanted to make use of the 25-pack of Accumed Preg...

January 12, 2021    I've been wondering for a few days about whether I should take a pregnancy test or not. I'm only 10 days late on my period and from what happened in the past 4 months, I'm not getting my hopes up. If you don't already know, I've been THROUGH IT all 2020. I got pregnant in February and miscarried in March at 5 weeks. Then I got pregnant again in August and miscarried in September at 7 weeks. Not even one menstrual cycle had passed when I conceived yet again in October and lost it once more in November at almost 9 weeks. Nes & I agreed to give my body a break in December and decided to stop trying. Since I'm only 1.5 weeks late on my period, I think the chances of me being pregnant again are slim. I still have hope, but I know better than to get excited only for my body to let me down again.  January 13, 2021    When I woke up this morning to get ready for work, I decided to use the last test I had. I couldn't handle the curiosity eatin...